does love even exist? i'm having a hard time believing it does.. i've spent years searching for it, I tried dating in hopes to feel this so-called butterflies all have been talking but nothing works out, in the end i'm always the one ending things due to the guilt of being unable to reciprocate the overwhelming attention I'm freely receiving.. all have been saying that I just have to wait for the right person to come but I don't think it will, maybe if I do settle with someone, most likely it would stem from the fear of being alone, leading to accepting that this butterflies that i'm feeling roots from the loneliness I'm feeling.