I feel so lonely lately, like despite having more friends now than I've had pretty much ever, I'm never on anyone's radar. I can't call with friends because they're never available unless I join in with a mutual friend who is a jerk to me. I genuinely miss my abusive exfriends right now, they were awful to me but at least they were always there. Now I can't even spend time with my roommates without them just going back to discord calling with said rude friend.