im a cheater. i never ever thought i would be or that id admit that out loud, but i am and i dont know how to stop feeling guilty about it. this happened 3 years ago, i cheated on my s/o with another person during a very drunken night out. i told my s/o ASAP, in person, as easily as i could although it hurt so bad. we broke up for about half a year after that, but then we got back together. its been about 2 years since and i am still with the s/o who i cheated on. we dont talk about it, but its still something so deeply prevalent in out relationship. i dont know how much my s/o thinks about it, but i almost dont want to know out of fear that its more often than i would like. and even though i’ve come clean and told my s/o, the guilt is eating me alive and has been this entire time. i feel like such a shitty person, but there are also parts of me that felt taken advantage of by the person who i cheated with. but ehen i say that if feels like too much of an excuse