I have no one to tell this to without feeling so stupid, no friend I trust to hold secrets or whatever. Or someone who won’t shame me. But I have a crush on my Professor. It’s stupid I know, “Everyone experiences this!” I know. But it doesn’t make me feel any less shitty or weird. I feel weird for liking him. I feel stupid for feeling both nervous and comfortable around him. And I hope how he actually listens to me. I know I’m just seeing one side of him and whatnot, I read all the articles with people asking the same question as I did. Seeing if this is normal. But God, sometimes I can’t help but wish this was allowed. Sometimes I wish I could just get this off my chest so I can move on and stop thinking about him. I wish he didn’t make me feel so comfortable. And I wish he didn’t like me the way he does. Platonic. It makes me so stupidly hopeful. Like there could be something there, like he’d ever love me more than how he currently sees me. More than student he recognizes because he’s friends with my parents. God. I feel so pathetic…