I am in love with my best friend. ik its not the most juicy confession but i cant talk to friends about it and i need to get it out. ive accepted being friends because they are truly an amazing person regardless, i just hope they are happy and healthy and want to keep me in their life in some way. i am dating other people as well at the same time but i keep noticing how easy it is to be with them, how well we get along and how they make me feel young and safe. the biggest is how safe i feel with them and i try to incorporate that for them as well to feel. unfortunately they are not interested like that in me. i know i need to get over them, and i'm trying. occasionally i do manage to get over them but then something happens while we hang out and the feelings are back. i know i should cut contact with them if i want to fully get over them, but i also dont want to? i want to keep them in my life, even as a friend. ik this is my own fault but here we are. since i can write, i will. theres a history as well. when we met, there was attraction, we hooked up couple times and had fun. but they rejected me and we've been friends ever since. this was 2 years ago. thats why im not even considering pursuing this because i already have an answer. if they liked me, they would pursue it. and they dont. I hate that i know im not subtle with my attraction when the feelings flare up, im pretty sure people around me have noticed. i feel pathetic