I have mostly only ever fallen in love with people that don't or can't return those feelings. I'm so lonely all the time and there is nowhere for me to go. I'm stuck here, until I die, in a place that wants people like me to all cease to exist. I'll never find mutual love again, I'll never get to be a mother, I'll never be in control of my life again. All I can do is support the ones I know that need it and help them to not end up in the pit that I've ended up in. I can't wait to no longer be needed. At least then, I'll just stop thinking and become Nothing.